(A Youtube message from my viewer)
Thank you
Hi,Thank you
I just wanted to thank you for this. I am not male, I am not gay, but I can relate.
I dont feel as dirty, as wrong or as unworthy. I grew up thinking that what happened to me was my fault... They didnt even have to tell me not to tell... They just made sure I was always in trouble...
For years I grew up not attracted to anyone...male or female... I had no feelings at all toward anyone... I thought maybe I was supposed to be .. me... on this island... there for everone... but alone.. I love people... but it is purely platonic...
I also grew up in church... I was 3 when they (2 cousins) started... and ended when I was about 10...
I thought I put it all behind me... but it was not over. I was taken advantage of in every other area of my life...time after time... I couldnt be around any men of a certain age... I hated the concept of family.. kept all my problems to myself because I felt somehow I deserved them... and deep down.. I thought God was punishing me for what happened to me...
I was grown before I was a child... When I finally tried to tell someone.. I was told I was a lier... I was the 'good' child... so their reaction... shocked me.. and made me question everything.. my whole life... my reasons for doing 'the right thing'... why I walked around covered from head to foot, not even my neck showing...why I couldnt stand girls...why I felt so different... why I felt like I was looking through a window at the rest of the world...
I went through a depression... I left home... (I am only telling half the story...)
You have let me know that my experience was not in vain... I know it is so I can prevent the same hurt and destruction and most of all pain from happening to others...
I still have nightmares...almost every night... I entered my first ever 'relationship' a year ago and I am well into my 20's... But from watching you... I know I am going to be ok...
Thank you....
Thank you so much...
Thank you... thank you....
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